Hi mate,
I'm certain that I wasn't the first one. There are plenty out there who opted for the option that I've yet to daringly choose. However, this is the option that I have - quitting housemanship.
Everyday I woke up I reflected upon myself, seeing what's coming on daily basis and what had happen yesterday. The regular bowl of scolding served countless time daily for me have blunted me emotionally, turning a jovial, happy man into a timid individual who seems to get agitated, anxious on just about everything. Everyday I wonder what happened yesterday, to know what went wrong the day before.
I read about an adventure of an ex-colleague of mine at quittinghousemanship.blogspot.com
and how he boldly decided to march towards freedom and into unknown world now doing very well for himself. I envy him for his courage. I wish to do the same but I'm married. If I were to break through this barricade of sorrow, I need to know that I have secured another regular bowl to feed me and my family.
What is it that I hate about my job? The long hours? No, it's not the hours. As much as I despise working through the long hours on sunday and saturday, I never went AWOL or take EL. I came on time and get back late. Is it the scolding? Maybe, but it's part of the work. What is wrong with this "honorable" occupation that made me decide to end my journey on this path? I guess it's the culture that I'm working with. The mini boss I have to serve have different want and need while constantly changing his/her mind on a particular way of doing thing which in return causing me difficulty to adapt. The other part - the worse part, is the save ass attitude. My view that doctor-ship are based on teamwork were crushed and turned quickly into dust as soon as reality take places. Everyone are busy trying to save their assess with the so called "documentation". The worst of all - "favoritism". No matter how hard you work, those who became favorite will "perform" and get through the so called posting, though he can't insert a branula or took one hour to clerk one case or unable to made clinical different between 5% dehydration or not.
I know despite hard work and grit that I put to make through to this posting, undoubtedly extension will be rewarded to me. So I decided
Thanks to a dear colleague of mine, Mr Sham, I decided to venture into new world, where performance a clearly rated and your job scope are more defined. I'm waiting for his "company" to call me for interview. I know I'm trading good pay with good life. I hope I get this job. I really do. Pray for me.
I'm counting my day.......for Resignation Day
RD minus 14 days and counting.
ex-Branula thing
Unfair things happened everywhere, felt in the same shoe as you did. These can happened in other fields too only the medical complications are more horrific compared to other fields. Community has changed, doctorship are not so honoured by some population, however there are still people with gratitude that give us faith and confidence to move on. I won't think your decision is wrong, stay or not stay in this path is a decision. Good luck and enjoy your life! There is never the only way!
ReplyDeleteUnfair things happened everywhere, felt in the same shoe as you did. These can happened in other fields too only the medical complications are more horrific compared to other fields. Community has changed, doctorship are not so honoured by some population, however there are still people with gratitude that give us faith and confidence to move on. I won't think your decision is wrong, stay or not stay in this path is a decision. Good luck and enjoy your life! There is never the only way!
ReplyDeleteDear Ex-Branula Thing...we all make decisions and hope that we are making the right ones. I'm sure you have thought this decision through and I wish you all the best. I am a doctor like you. I worked through school and medical school and housemanship and post-graduate studies. Unfortunately you will encounter numerous unpleasant and unfair individuals in your path but that is present in any walk of life. If you enjoy medicine, maybe you might consider pushing through these challenges and find an area in medicine that suits your personality and lifestyle. It is always sad to lose a fellow colleague after they have worked so hard to attain the position. But medicine isn't for everyone and sometimes it takes working as a doctor to discover it. What has kept me practising medicine is the knowledge that everyday I'm helping someone. I hope you find your calling and truly wish you the best in your future.
ReplyDeleteThe world is so much bigger. Enjoy yourself.
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